Sir,
I could feel your pain. But you are wonderful as seeking help is the best way to come out of a problem.
Jesse Livermore lost all his capital twice and after that he made billions. Hence, the markets would always be kind enough to give back provided we set a plan and stick to it.
Trading is 95% Psychology & 5% analysis according to my experience. There’s a little book that could be found online “Zen In The Markets”. It had helped me a lot.